Thursday, May 31

so when the devil wants to dance with you, you better say never because the dance with the devil might last you forever

so ahh i cant even write with the picture of cook just staring down at me. ahh hes so fit. 
im finding it so hard to study at the moment my concentration is awful i think i did like 5 pages of history today. theres 200 to do :(

  3 weeks and then i wont be a mess anymore!

Sunday, May 20

we had to learn how to bend without the world caving in

ahh its so tempting to get a tattoo but i know i'll regret it coz my taste changes so quickly so i'll love something one minute and find it amazing and then after abit i wont love it too much so i just know any design i get i wont like after a bit. haha just listening to 212 by azealia banks on the radio and you can hardly hear the lyrics coz its had to be censored so much. ahh its a good song.
made myself do 4 and half hours of studying and only got through like 45 pages. after every paragraph i needed a break. its so hard to work coz it makes me feel ill so its hard to work, its like having to hurt myself. i know as soon as i stop i'll feel better so its hard to keep at it when my concentration is so bad and i feel sick, dizzy and jumpy and nervous all the time while i work.
im so fed up of the fact that im gonna do bad in my exams coz i cant deal with the pressure. but hey at least my depression isnt so bad atm. i might go away this weekend that should help abit.