maybe its the way you move you got me dreaming like a fool that i could steal your heart away

i hate having to be strong all the time, constantly being ill, i just want these exams to fuck off. i cant do this anymore. maybe i'll dye my hair blue that'll take my mind off things

so when the devil wants to dance with you, you better say never because the dance with the devil might last you forever

so ahh i cant even write with the picture of cook just staring down at me. ahh hes so fit. 

im finding it so hard to study at the moment my concentration is awful i think i did like 5 pages of history today. theres 200 to do :(

  3 weeks and then i wont be a mess anymore!

we had to learn how to bend without the world caving in

ahh its so tempting to get a tattoo but i know i'll regret it coz my taste changes so quickly so i'll love something one minute and find it amazing and then after abit i wont love it too much so i just know any design i get i wont like after a bit. haha just listening to 212 by azealia banks on the radio and you can hardly hear the lyrics coz its had to be censored so much. ahh its a good song.

made myself do 4 and half hours of studying and only got through like 45 pages. after every paragraph i needed a break. its so hard to work coz it makes me feel ill so its hard to work, its like having to hurt myself. i know as soon as i stop i'll feel better so its hard to keep at it when my concentration is so bad and i feel sick, dizzy and jumpy and nervous all the time while i work.

im so fed up of the fact that im gonna do bad in my exams coz i cant deal with the pressure. but hey at least my depression isnt so bad atm. i might go away this weekend that should help abit. 

i remember we were driving in your car speed so fast felt like i was drunk city lights lay out before us and your arms felt nice around my shoulders and i had a feeling that i belonged

i wish i remembered this photographer. most of these pics are by one guy but i didnt note down his name. all i remember is he is spanish

so these pictures made me think of the tracy chapman song fast car. its a song about wanting so desperately to escape as a teenager and finding that one person who makes you feel you belong and can be anything you wanna be. and then reaching that point again when youre older and settled. i think im a bit of a traveller. im not a very homely person, i love going to interesting places and doing new things. i just wanna explore. but instead im stuck here doing A levels. im so impatient. i just wanna leave and fall in love but neither is gonna be happening just yet. patience patience.